Human beings, for all of our love of color, still prefer for things to be black and white. Particularly in our relationship with Self, gray makes us all a little nervous. We want to know whether to feel good or bad about ourselves. We want to know where Self stands: On the success side or on the failure side of being? On the capable side or the incapable side? And, all too often, we’re guilty of making harsh judgments about ourselves, based on the reality factors of now, that do us way more harm than good.
We don’t always get to look pretty as we go through our stages of growing forward. When the processes that take us from one mind-state of being to another thrust us into an emotional limbo, where we feel as if we don’t know if we’re coming or going, speaking affirmative words of wisdom to ourselves— “I’m neither all weak nor all strong . . . I’m neither all good nor all bad . . . I’m still growing and still learning.”—can calm the qualms we’re feeling and make all the difference as to whether we hang in there, or bust.
It might help us to feel more confident, about ourselves and our capabilities, if we were to remember that until our new mindsets become ripe enough to create full-blown changes in our lives, we should expect to have to spend time in the swaying-bridge zone of experiences where we’ll find ourselves climbing from one level of understanding to another . . . and from one level of belief to the next higher.
Excerpt from From Trouble to High Places: Meditations for Women Who Are So Ready to Cross the Bridges that Lead to Joy! Copyright 2009 Esther Davis-Thompson